Day 624

Perseverence = steady persistence in a course of action, a purpose, a state, etc., especially in spite of difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.

These past months, weeks, days I have been pondering a lot on what it means to perservere. What it means to hold onto something and not waver. To believe for something that seems unlikely.

It's been nearly 100 days since God spoke to me about healing John's hips. 100 days.


In God's time I am sure it is just a breath.
For us, it has felt like several deep breathes; a lot of sighing, a few sniffles as tears fall.

I have seen John make many strides of improvements, for a long time I could see healing with my own eyes. The past few weeks he has been getting worse. Today he told me his feet are pigeon toeing and his hips are becoming more restricted in movement than ever before. I couldn't help but cry.
How I wish I could stretch my hands out and command God's healing to come and too see it come in all the ways I want to see it. But alas I cannot force God's hand.

I remember when I first heard God speak that he was going to heal John; it felt like I was on this journey with a million cheering around me, believing that same word I heard! But over the weeks and months it feels as if I may be the only one left at the party. Let me be clear I am not trying to insticate pity here, I am simply trying to share my heart. Many well meaning people speak to me about the wonder of hip replacements (if you are one of them I am not mad at you!) but what we need, what I need, is to be reminded of what God said and maybe what God may speak to you for us.

Would you please pray for us and share with us the words God gives you? We have heard him speak to us but we need a fresh word from Him so as we pray that He would speak us directly would you pray and ask if He has anything He may wish to communicate through you.

I (Amanda) cannot go back now. I have declared to everyone I know that I believe God is going to heal John. Replacements are not an option, crutches are not an option. living this life of no mobility is not an option. As a man in July spoke to John "you are to reject these crutches because you are going to be testimony of God's strength"

Please believe with us...My God has never failed me yet

Romans 5:2-5 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.